where did the sun go?

i'm becoming increasingly aware that myself, my friends and those whom i don't wish contact with anymore (that's a lie) never really know anything. the older we get, the less we are sure of anything at all. i can count the number of things that i know definitively on one hand. and of those one hand of things, less that 50% are of the spiritual variety.


what kind of leader tells people "i don't know. i don't know, and i can't tell you a surefire way to find out. because i don't know that either."


honesty? i want to tell you congratulations. i honestly never thought you would do it, but i'm glad you did. and i hope it brings you happiness, deeper meaning, closer to god, whatever. mostly i just hope that you get out of it whatever it is you're looking for. and don't be surprised if you run into me there some day.









i am so insufficient. and replacable. and i'm tired of being this person and i want to become less. none of my ramblings make sense, but that's okay. bleeargh.