my problem with life:

i miss mine.

sunday pretty much all i could think...well, besides "please god don't ever let me preach like that," was that pride is the haven of the fearful and i know this is true because my life is a testament to that exact thing. i'm tired of being prideful for no reason except feeling superior allows me to pull away from everyone and everything around me. yeah. because that's worked so well for me in the past. i'm sick of it.
i'm sick of everything.



i'm tired of days that last 13 hours and not getting to sleep in because i have to be in class the next morning. i'm tired of feeling as if i'm just a little bit behind everyone else and nothing is working out for me.


...i spent the past 10 years of my life being the person i wanted to be (more or less) and i never. ever. thought that i would be alienated for it at school. work, maybe. but never school. i'm too goofy to be professional and too liberal to be a youth leader.

this is what they call Professionally Screwed.