control:

i am a nerd. who goes to school with other nerds. who study nerdy things and revel about in our own nerdiness.

there is. no hope for me.

today is so gorgeous it makes me want to cry. and call eric. blast him and his being in my thoughts so randomly. i told myself when i decided not to drink until my birthday that i would also not even let myself entertain the notion of speaking to him until my birthday as well. as it is now the beginning of february, i don't know that my birthday is far enough away for me to be ready to speak to him. or even text him.


bleeargh. i started that post on monday, when the weather was wonderful. now, tuesday, the weather is notsomuch. today was not perfect weather for shrove tuesday, but rather perfect weather for the beginning of lent. this year, unlike any year past that i can recall, i am excited for lent and the possibility of change that it brings.

what is lent? it's basically when the church gets emo for awhile.
some days, i think i should be a youth pastor still.